Ramblings of a three year old...

Grayson has proven to be quite a headstrong little boy. He can be too rough with other kids; he can tell me no, and we have truly entered the land of tantrums. All of these actions require discipline and discipline he gets.....but, it seems that mostly, it makes little difference. If he decides he wants something, he not only whines to get it, but will rationalize verbally to get it. I feel as though sometimes we only fight these battles in public, whether it's in front of my mom, my in-laws, friends, school, or even our babysitter. What I hate the most is that sometimes I know people never get to see the other side of him.

While he may be all these things, he is also full of so much love, respect, intelligence, and kind heartedness. It's my absolute daily prayer that these attributes are what survive these years of toddlerhood! If you're at home with your children, you know to what I'm speaking of. There are those moments when it's just the two of you (or three, or six, or whatever), and it makes it all worth it. Those sweet moments when he's just your sweet little boy, telling you he loves you, or smiling sweetly, or crawling up in your lap...

A couple of weeks ago when we were cooking together, Gray looked up and said, "Mommy, am I your best friend?" Choking back some tears, I said, "Of course you are!" He smiled a sigh of relief and replied matter of factly, "That's good, because you're my best friend, too."

He usually knows which days are for school, and will ask, "Is tomorrow a school day?" A few weeks ago we were reading our stories for bedtime and he asked. I told him it was a school day and asked wasn't he excited. He frowned, and said in his grown up voice, "Well, yes, I'm excited, but Mommy, I miss you when I'm at school."

Moments like these are what make me know, without a shadow of a doubt, that I am purposed for this. I am here to share my God with this little boy (and my little girl), to love him unconditionally, to expose him to all the opportunity I can, to shape him to be the Godly man I know he will be. In short, it makes all that stuff I worry about disappear with one little kiss.